I dreamed a dreamed, a dream of times gone by

In my dream I was sleeping and a man (I won't be specific because I don't think it is relevant) was sitting next to me, holding my hand while I slept. It was such a loving, kind gesture...I hope I have the dream again tonight.

I really really really want these shoes. A lot. I love them. I will name them Stella and be their best friend.






These are beautiful as well. They would look awesome with some skirts I have, and with pants. Mmmm.






These are also really cute, especially for the summer.






These are just for fun. Hello fun shoes, will you be mine?





Does anyone have approximately $1000 to give to me so that I can buy shoes? Thanks!

How do we keep all our passions alive, as we used to do?

Sometimes even a great hair day and a cute skirt won't lift the funk, and stupid little things get to me. I think that there needs to be MORE PEOPLE here; I need variety and more socialization.

It is nice, though, when you realize that your best friend knows you almost as well as you know yourself. :)

I am ready for a change. I need to shake things up, discover something (or someone) new, rearrange the furniture. It is not the right time yet, but I am getting myself ready to move to a new place...It seems like a ridiculously long time, but in two years I may be living across the country. I have no idea what I will be doing, or where I am going, but I know I want to get there. I think I'm suffocating here, among people that inevitably know my parents, or I went to high school with their daughter, or used to be my teacher. I need new people, new places, new ideas. I'm not the most outgoing person in the world (far, FAR from it), but even I get tired of going to the same places all the time, and having the same experiences.

But, until I finish grad school (Dec. '07), the least at my apartment runs out (May '08), and I save up enough money (???), I am stuck.

Anyone want to come over and help me rearrange furniture this weekend?

Three Things:

• I no longer have a crush. I've over it. (Side note: have you ever done an image search for "crush"? So random!)
  

• I am still attracted to guys with beards. No idea why, it does not feel good against my face. Weird.

• I really really want to go shopping. I want new jeans, a new mattress, and a new comforter set (preferably down). I also have $16.59 in my checking account.
  

Dear Internet,

If you could aid in my quest to become a full-time student with no job I would really appreciate it. This past week has been a wonderful dose of getting enough sleep, cooking my own meals, reading, thinking, watching television, walking, hanging with friends and family, taking pictures, and cleaning. I think I could totally fill my time like this instead of going to a job for 40 hours a week. Plus this whole going to bed when I am tired (usually around midnight - 1am) and waking up when I want to (9-10am) is also fabulous.

So if you could get on that, I would be very grateful.

Thanks,

Beth

P.S. Just as an example, it is 5:32pm right now, and instead of being tired from a day of work I have been to the library and the grocery store. Next, I am going to go walking, then come back and make dinner, then maybe watch some tv or do some school reading. See? Good stuff!

If wishes were children, I would be the old woman living in her shoe.

Right now, I wish...

• I was walking through the streets of NYC, taking pictures, with a ticket to a show for that evening.
• I were in the park, taking pictures of all the pretty trees that are blooming.
• I were at home, with all (two) of the windows open, reading a book (of my choice), with everything completely clean.
• I were wearing my red high heels. Just because.
• I were buying flowery plants to hang on my patio.
• For it to be 5 o'clock already.
• I were running errands, getting stuff done.
• I were sitting in a coffee shop in Austin, drinking coffee and hanging out with very cool, interesting people.
• I was packing for my trip to London/Ireland/Europe (which probably won't be happening for another two years).
  
• I was on the Mac website, buying a new computer for myself.